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Introduction [Jan. 11th, 2008|04:02 am]
[Current Location |home]
[mood |contentcontent]
[music |forensic files]

name: Dani

age: 30

favorite female writers/poets with themes of madness? Woolf. Plath. Dickinson.

favorite books on madness? I hate you ~ Don't leave me.
avorite films which document or hint at "women & madness"? The Hours.

favorite quote, or line from one of the authors/poets/books/film stated above? You cannot find peace by avoiding lfe - Virginia Woolf 

do you have personal experiences which have been touched on in this community? I'm sure I would be considered a mad woman!

Lovely to meet all of you!

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(no subject) [Aug. 9th, 2007|05:32 am]

[mood |curiouscurious]

I've been on extreme mood stabilizers and I've always wondered, would it be better to just get off the meds and listen to the voices in my head. Does anyone else ever feel like this?
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the innocents, 1961 [Dec. 1st, 2007|08:31 am]


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hello, mad women. [Nov. 30th, 2007|05:43 pm]
[mood |crazywondering]
[music |La vie est belle :// Aqme]

name: willow.
age: 18
favorite female writers/poets with themes of madness? sylvia plath, virginia woolf, francesca lia block, marya hornbacher, emily dickinson, anne sexton...
favorite books on madness? The Bell Jar, Wasted, Mrs. Dalloway, so very many poems.
favorite films which document or hint at "women & madness"? The Hours; Girl, Interrupted; The Virgin Suicides
favorite quote, or line from one of the authors/poets/books/film stated above? Oh I cannot choose just one, let me share just a few...

I didn't know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked at me too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of my throat and I'd cry for a week. I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.

To the person in the bell jar, blank and stopped as a dead baby, the world itself is the bad dream.
-- The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath

"She felt very young; at the same time unspeakably aged. She sliced like a knife through everything; at the same time was outside, looking on... far out to sea and alone; she always had the feeling that it was very, very dangerous to live even one day." --Mrs Dalloway, Virginia Woolf

“My heart is a teacup with hairline cracks. I feel like I have to walk real carefully so it won't get shaken and just all shatter and break.” -- Missing Angel Juan, Francesca Lia Block

“It's not that I literally think I'm a faerie. It's just that I feel so different from most people. And this idea of a race living underground in caverns, spending all their days dancing and playing the fiddle and eating flowers and reciting poetry and sharing their dreams, that to me sounds much more real than the way people live in this world, hating and fighting and wanting and hurting.” ... “That was when I cut my arms with a razor blade as a means of creative expression. I only did it lightly, just grazing the skin, to see the way the blood would bleed out, to make myself look tougher. Not like some of those kids who keep going deeper and deeper, wondering what they look like down to the bone, because it's a world that's so close and yet so far and so dangerous and so much their own. The only world that is their own.” ... “This was not a faerie tale. This was not the movies. This was life. It hurt more. It was excruciating. It was excruciatingly beautiful.”-- Violet and Claire, Francesca Lia Block

Oh dear, I'm sorry loves, I just have so many words that touch me, I'm done now.

do you have personal experiences which have been touched on in this community? yes, yes I do. I was diagnosed with bulimia with anorexic tendencies a few years ago, though I have now recovered, mostly. I've also been diagnosed with depression, which I am doing oh so much better with, but it is still always a struggle. I have been in a mental hospital twice...and I must say it is one of the most...open...places to write. Everything seems to cease, it is all white-washed, it leaves just the raw humanity to observe, contemplate, and write about. Writing and reading...words in general, have been what has kept me going, and at times brought me back. I have been to the edge, yet not quite let go...or maybe I did let go, but had nowhere to go. Such extremes of the mind and soul, they hurt and they seem to be the edges of existence, but I am glad I have been there, seen such things, seen the deepest parts of myself, what my mind and soul can do if I do not guide them. I am an English major, I hope someday to share my words with others, and my madness, past and just pulsing presently, has given such depths to the ink on paper. So I like to believe.

It is so lovely to meet all of you, I do find mad women artists to be some of the most inspiring...and I can feel so much of it. I do love new friends, if anyone would like to be friends, though my journal is mostly my struggles with recovery.

I hope you are having a beautiful day, or perhaps just a day, a day that will be remembered.
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(no subject) [Nov. 25th, 2007|12:18 am]

name: Frannie
age: 19
favorite female writers/poets with themes of madness?  Emily Dickinson, Charlotte Perkins Gilman, Joyce Carol Oates
favorite books on madness? The Yellow Wallpaper, Asylum, First Love, Lolita, The Turn of the Screw, The Sound and the Fury, Wuthering Heights
favorite films which document or hint at "women & madness"? Fur: An Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus, Running with Scissors, The Others, The Innocents

Hello, i am a psych major and i love happy things, but i also love gothic literature or any art form involving romance and madness intertwined in characters.  I love how Diane Arbus takes photos of "the fringes of society," and nothing sparks my interest more than a psychologically "uncomfortable" film or novel, especially if it were to have madwomen hidden in attics or secret incestuous relationships...  And feminist lit is wonderful but i admire all the madmen in fiction as well. :)
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New girl. [Nov. 20th, 2007|10:21 pm]
name: Rie.
age: 21.
favorite female writers/poets with themes of madness? Anne Sexton, Sylvia Plath and Virginia Woolf.
favorite books on madness? The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath, The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides, The Hours by Michael Cunningham, Out of Her Mind: Women Writing on Madness by Rebecca Shannonhouse, My Madness Saved Me: The Madness and Marriage of Virginia Woolf by Thomas Szass
favorite films which document or hint at "women & madness"? The Hours, Proof and The Virgin Suicides.
favorite quote, or line from one of the authors/poets/books/film stated above? "I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart: I am, I am, I am." Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar
do you have personal experiences which have been touched on in this community? I have Schizoaffective Disorder, which is a schizoid disorder, like Schizophrenia. I've also been diagnosed with Clinical Depression, Manic Depression and Social Anxiety as well. I have an affinity for people who understand the hardships of madness. Writers included.

I'm always looking for new friends who share similar interests, so feel free to add me.
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hello [Jun. 9th, 2007|10:39 am]
[mood |anxiousanxious]
[music |camera obscura]

name: Brooke Autumn
age: 15
favorite female writers/poets with themes of madness?  Plath (is an eternal goddess), Anne Sexton and Diane Arbus (was a photographer but a women and mad all the same).
favorite books on madness?  The Bell Jar, Virgin Suicides along with many others that can't seem to find their way into my mind at the moment.
favorite films which document or hint at "women & madness"?  The adaptaion of Virgin Suicides and Girl Interupted, me without you, Candy... I could go on for hours.
favorite quote, or line from one of the authors/poets/books/film stated above?
The black telephone's off at the root,
The voices just can't worm through.
                                        ----Sylvia Plath,
do you have personal experiences which have been touched on in this community?

I am a frequent inhabitant of the Laureate psychological hospital’s children’s crisis unit, diagnosed with chemical manic depression, social anxiety and such, along side the possibility of multiple mood disorders, of which bipolar 2 is the only definite. 
I’ve been in therapy for exactly a year now, however when all of this started is beyond me, I predict perhaps it was around the age of seven or younger.  However, I seemed a happy child, I found myself keeping morbid journals of plans and suicide notes, constantly sifting through them, correcting and critiquing them.  When one was filled, I would tear the pages and throw the entire book down the drain, down the street and spit on it.

I’m a bit mad.
But I’m attempting to hold on to my mind.  It gets harder and easier sometimes. 
I love my therapist.  Its nice to meet all of you.
I hope you do not find me freakish although I suppose by some definitions I am just that.

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(no subject) [May. 2nd, 2007|04:27 pm]

I've been here for a long time, and I've posted other stuff, but reading Amy's post the other day made me go back and read all the posts, and I realized that I never did post one of these. So here it is.

name: Brigid

age: 17

favorite female writers/poets with themes of madness? Sylvia, of course, and Anne, but my favorite poet of all time is Sara Teasdale. She doesn't really deal with madness but she writes about death and love and all the biggies. Her style is really simple and lovely and I've never connected to poetry as much as I have hers. She did end up committing suicide, so maybe she did deal with madness; I never met her, I don't know.

favorite books on madness? I read Jane Eyre during April vacation for the first time and absolutely loved it. Also, I loved the book versions of Girl, Interrupted and the Virgin Suicides, maybe each a little bit better than the movies. I Never Promised You a Rose Garden was really good, but I could only read a bit at a time. Lisa, Bright and Dark, and I just finished MacBeth in school and enjoyed it.

favorite films which document or hint at "women & madness"? The Virgin Suicides, Girl, Interrupted, High Art, which wasn't really about madness, but it was troubling and so I group it in with all my sad movies, I don't know. I feel like there are more than just those, but I honestly can't think of anything. Titles will probably come to me in the middle of the night.

favorite quote, or line from one of the authors/poets/books/film stated above? I dont know that I could pick a favorite quote, but there's a poem that my therapist, actually, gave to me and I can't remember the author but I think it works for this...

It is more onerous
than the rights of beauty
or housework, harder than love.
But you expect it of me casually,
the way you expect the sun
to come up, not in spite of rain
or clouds but because of them.

And so I smile, as if my own fidelity
to sadness were a hidden vice-
that downward tug on my mouth,
my old suspicion that health
and love are brief irrelevancies,
no more than laughter in the warm dark
strangled at dawn.

Happiness. I try to hoist it
on my narrow shoulders again-
a knapsack heavy with gold coins.
I stumble around the house,
bump into things.
Only Midas himself
would understand.

do you have personal experiences which have been touched on in this community? I'm diagnosed with depression and BPD.
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WomanSavers.com [Jan. 5th, 2007|03:01 pm]

[Current Location |California]
[mood |disappointeddisappointed]

Dear Ass-wipe,

I posted you on http://www.womansavers.com for all the world to see how you cheated on me and hurt me emotionally and physically. I pray that you will never hurt another but I know because you are good looking and charming, another prey will fall trap in your web of lies.

Someday a greater power will judge you but until that time I will let the world know my story.

Forever Scarred
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